Monday, October 3, 2016

Moving Forward

The Waiting Game ended last week. The project is moving forward without me.

Now, before we go any further, I know there are many of you out there who are assuming I must be upset.  Perhaps you are feeling sorry for me, even feeling bad for me. I want you to know that you don't have to feel that way (even though it is presumptuous of me to tell you what to feel).  I'll admit I've been upset for some small moments, but I've felt the upset, I've acknowledged the upset and because of that, I've been able to let go of the upset and I am moving forward. I don't feel sorry for me, I don't even feel bad for me.  So you shouldn't either.

You see, that's the point I'm trying to make in telling you this entire tale.  It's how you choose to look at the experience - the experience being an opportunity, a relationship, a career choice, even the new color of your hair.  I have chosen to look at this experience as a positive.   That choice is very new for me.  It has taken practice, BUT, as I told you in this post, I did it!  I changed my attitude!  And since I changed my attitude, and since I am the Queen of Stubborn and Negative Attitudes, I know you also can change your attitude.



Life hands all of us a mess.  Some of that mess is gorgeous and easy to live with.  Some of that mess is a disaster area and we do our best to avoid it.  But, whether gorgeous or a disaster, there's life in there.  Glorious life, full of blood and people and air and feelings and music and sweat and trees and all the beautiful things that give us a complete life.  Embrace it, love it, and find the life in your life.  Right now.  Don't wait.  Tomorrow will be too late.

This doesn't mean ignoring the negative.  This means acknowledging it's existence, dealing with it, if necessary (that's usually the case) and then moving on, letting go, turning the focus to the positive.  See paragraph 1 if you don't understand.



So what am I doing these days?  I'm auditioning, just like I was before.  There's another performing gig out there waiting for me and my job right now is to find it. I having a blast working on my next cabaret (hint:  YOU should come).  I'm back to teaching in my private studio, enjoying it as much as I ever have.  Beloved and I have been working on some long-delayed household projects. Demolition is a great way to get rid of excess energy.  Oh, and we rescheduled that trip.  But we're not going to Machu Picchu....stay tuned!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

One step forward, one backward - it's not a setback. It's a cha-cha. (Not an original thought. Probably saw it on a Shoebox greeting card. Or Pinterest.) At any rate, keep dancing, my friend! You really do inspire me. I'm getting a better atty-tude myself. Soon. Cynthia

Heidi Hayes said...

I like that, Cynthia! I am definitely dancing. Happy to inspire. Hang in there!